oh, how he loves us !

I've been listening to How He Loves by David Crowder Band on repeat since yesterday. I can't stop, it's just so beautiful and overwhelming. I've always struggled with understanding and appreciating the magnitude of the sacrifice on the cross. I've always known it, accepted it as fact, and that's pretty much it. Being raised in the church really caused me to take for granted the gift that's been given to me, and that continues to be given to me daily. And it is such an amazing feeling finally getting it! Finally realizing the beauty behind the cross. So I painted a picture! Haha I am a super beginner but I was inspired and I ran with it.

The past couple of days I've been enjoying all my Christmas gifts! Most are books but I got a couple of really great ones and it's been really relaxing to just sit back and get lost in a sea of print.

Yesterday I played around with a couple of ideas I had for some paintings in my head. I'm super happy with the outcome of the 'outside the box' one, and the other sort of left a lot to be desired, but! again.. I am new to this world of acrylics!


I've been getting all these emails from my favorite stores: Delia's, Urban Outfitters, Macy's, Ralph Lauren and a couple others about items on clearance if I buy them online and it's soooo temptinggg! Ah! I literally have no money to my name, so even entertaining the idea of shopping is ridiculous. wah. However, I did pick these little babies up yesterday. Originally $85 and I got them for 41 bucks! They were on clearance! Don't judge me.

Alright, I will shoot myself later for saying this, but yesterday I watched a movie called Fireproof and I sort of really would like to be married. I just want my life to start, you know? Life oustide the Realm of Mom, at least. Anyways. I am young yet, I have much time. --ummm that was my best attempt at Middle Earth talk..

Resolution update time! Some of them can't be applied until I get back to Cornerstone, but I've been absentmindedly trying to apply the few that I can. How anyone absentmindedly tries to do anything is sort of beyond me but just go with it.

I have been eating, sleeping and drinking water daily, although not as much water as I should. Watching the Biggest Loser on Tuesday has sort of made me a bit more conscious about what I eat, though not drastically. Drastic might do me some good. It's really easy to sit around and eat all day long, which is a main reason I can't wait to get back to campus and have a set schedule that does not allow for sitting around and eating all day.

Hmmm, I think I have accomplished being as creative as my orderly bones will allow!

Spending more time listening has allowed me to show more respect. I'm trying really hard not to just spit out sarcastic responses (which, unfortunately I am extreeeemely guilty of) when people ask me trivial questions. The point is, the questions are only ever trivial to me. Whereas for the one asking, they are legit questions. And I guess all questions are legit...I'm working on it, slowly. Oh! and I have also successfully read my Bible daily.

Speaking of my Bible, it is so weird to look back at where you were a week ago and to see how much progress (if any) you have made. I personally feel I have made wonderful progression, and I just can't give enough thanks to God for keeping me so strong for so long.